Wednesday, December 6, 2006

Careful what you wish for....

Tomorrow I have an appointment to meet with The Slug and my lawyer to draw up the final papers for the modification, with all the agreed upon points in there. She will take the papers and file them with the court and we'll see where it goes from there.

But now that we have reached an agreement, and this is all going to be over soon, and we've both agreed that we don't want to fight anymore, he now seems to think we're going to be best friends. And that is almost as bad as when we were fighting. He now finds a reason to call me every day, sometimes it's about the girls, today it was because he heard there was a traffic jam on the highway and wanted to know if I was sitting in traffic. Christ. I don't want to be his best friend. I will be nice to him, I will be civil to him all for the sake of the girls, but Damnit I will not be his best friend. I will not share every asspect of my life with him. Just the girls. I divorced him, I'm moving AWAY from him. He just doesn't understand boundaries. ARG! But, don't want to piss him off just yet, not until the papers are signed...

My life seems to be a rollercoaster of emotions. Up and down, with the unexpected conclusion of the modification. The up and down of where things stand with B. We're talking again, and I can't begin to tell you how awesome I think that is. He's coming up here tomorrow night, after work, and that's kind of cool too. I just have to remember things have changed, and we will never get back what we had. But there's nothing that says we can't have something better than before. That's jumping the gun. Just relax, ride this out, and let the universe lead us down the path it has laid out before us.

I think I'm just tired of thinking about everything, over thinking every thing. That, and I'm bored to tears today.

2 comments:

yellowdog granny said...

i know a guy that for $50 will shoot him in the knee caps with a small 22 pistol...won't kill him but will put him out of action for awhile...
just a thought...

Anonymous said...

Deep breaths, so slow and easy maybe things will work out. But damn it's hard to be just friends with someone that makes your heart go pitty-pat