Why?

Why can't I have him? I got everything else I wanted this year. I got my girls. I've settled things with C1. I got my freedom. I found my backbone. I got my Nikon. I am standing on my own 2 feet. The only thing missing is....

Him.

Why can't I have him too? He hints around at it. He implies there is a possibility. He offers hope. But right now, falls just short of following through. Why can't I have him?

He's the only thing left on my wish list. Is it too much to ask for just one more Christmas miracle?