Home, not like it used to be

I went home this weekend. And just like the saying goes, it's true, you really can't go back home. Things are different now, as they should be. We are different now. There have been pain, and anger, and betrayal, and now, there is forgiveness, and patience, and faith.

I know that I spent a lot of time wishing I could go back, back to the happier days, back to when things were good between us, back to the way things used to be. But now, I know I can't go back, and really, I wouldn't want to go back.

I had to learn some really hard lessons, some really painful lessons, but good lessons. I had to let go of some things from my past. I had to learn to react differently to situations. I had to grow up.

Things are different between us now. Different in a good way. Some things are much the same, and I take great comfort and find hope in that.

Changes

My Horoscope for today “It's time to put your feet back on the ground! You've been doing tons of great work with your spirit, but now it's time to put those lessons to good use here on earth. Look for creative ways to use this newfound wisdom”

I have been doing a lot of work, internal, emotional work, some might even say spiritual work. I have walked a long and winding road these past couple of months. It has not been easy. There have been a lot of tears. I have done a lot of soul searching. I have learned some very hard lessons. I have learned that what you see isn’t always what it seems. I have learned to trust what I know, and hold on to the faith. I know that he had to leave, had to take a step (A huge step) back. I had to learn that I could do all of this on my own, without relying on him, depending on him. I had to learn to stand on my own two feet, fight my own fights, without him, even in my corner. It would have been too easy to depend, rely and lean on him.

So, it’s time to take all that I’ve learned, (to trust, to believe) and put them to good use.

There is something bright looming on the horizon of my life. I don’t know exactly what it is, but there are more changes coming my way. Positive changes.