New Question and Answer.

Dixie has asked me “If you could do one thing, for someone else that would change their life for the better, who would it be and what would you change?”

Damn. That’s tough. There are so many people I would do things for. I don’t know that I could pick just one person to do one thing for.

I think if I could, I would give everyone I know peace in their lives. We are all fighting our own personal battles. Some are bigger than others, some are harder than others, some have taken longer than others, but we all face our own personal demons. If I could give anyone anything to make their life better, I would want to give them the strength and the courage they need to fight those battles, and to win.

I’ve had to stand up and face a lot of demons this past year. I have also had to stand up and take responsibility for the power those demons held in my life. I allowed them that power, I gave them that power. I had to take a stand and take back my life. I had to take back the power I had given them. Not an easy thing to do.

I know that I have friends out there who have given away their power too, maybe without realizing it, and they are fighting personal demons in their lives. I don’t claim to have the answers, I don’t claim to have won every battle. I just know how good it feels to win one, and to know I have people supporting me every step of the way.
I would give that to everyone I know. The strength to face what life throws at them, the courage to fight for what they want, need and believe in, the joy of the victory, and the support of friends and family.

Power struggles

The truth I knew and feared yesterday is out in the open now. Last night, in a phone call, I found the guts to ask, to face it, if for no other reason than to strip the demon of it's power. It worked. It hurt, but not as bad as I had thought, and it's not as horrible as I had feared. It's not insurmountable either.

I took the demon's power away, by bringing it out into the open, finding out the truth. The truth, no matter how awful is better than a lie and better than not knowing. Not knowing meant my imagination could run wild and make it so much worse than it was. The truth, in the light, isn't as scary as the dark.

It's another hurdle to cross, another step in the journey. It's not defeat by any means, but it changes directions. There is still hope, but it's a step back too. Not as close as I once thought, but not down and out either. It just changes the game.

I'm not a quiter. I won't give up. I won't turn my back on what I believe to be true. I won't walk away. I'm a fighter, and I will fight for what I want and for what I believe in. I won't give up easily.