Courage

Courage, it would seem, is nothing less than the power to overcome danger, misfortune, fear, injustice, while continuing to affirm inwardly that life with all it's sorrows is good; that everything is meaningful even if in a sense beyond our understanding; and that there is always tomorrow. ~Dorothy Thompson.

I found that quote today on Raggedy's blog. It gave me hope, it encouraged me. Peanut Queen left me a comment today that brought a smile to my face. It made me realize that through my blog, I have met a great many wonderful supportive people, who I count as friends, even though we have never met. I have good people in my life to counter balance the slug, and the assholes in my life.

I have courage. Sometimes more than I realized. I find that I can go on much longer than I thought I could. I find that I have the power to face the injustice, the unfairness, the drama and the stress of my life. and through it all, I continue to hold on to the belief that life is good. There is a reason for everything I am going through, there are lessons to be learned here. I just have to pay attention and learn them. All that I have been through and will go through will make me stronger, teach me much.

I have also learned that in telling my story here, I heal my heart, and my pain, and my past. But in telling my story, I hopefully have touched others too and given them hope and courage and strength to do what is necessary to claim their lives. In telling my story, and helping others, it is another step in healing me.

I know that because we share the girls, I will always have to deal with the Slug in some way. I can not change him. I can, however, change how I chose to deal with him, and react to him. I can change me. I can change my patterns, and hopefully, when he realizes his actions no longer get the usual reactions, then maybe, just maybe his actions will change. Probably not. But at least mine will.

Courage is nothing less than the power to keep going, to face all life throws at you, and overcome the obstacles, and continue to believe in the ultimate good, and that everything happens for a reason. Take the bad, and learn from it, turn it around and make it good.

I have courage. Even when I don't think I do.