Thursday, February 22, 2007

Horoscopes and such

When you push too hard to make something happen, it never turns out exactly the way you think it would. Why not let go of your expectations and let this situation evolve more organically? You'll be happier. Feeling insecure is normal, but you have to deal with it in a grown-up way. Projecting it onto someone else will cause more trouble. You don't want to ruin something potentially great because of your unconscious panic.

That is my horoscope for today. It's a lesson hard learned, but one I've learned, or am learning. Patience paid off. Not pushing too hard, letting things evolve on their own, paid off. Learning to deal with my insecurities in a mature way, paid off.

In Spades.

Standing on the precipice of life altering events, wanting to leap forward with gusto, but finding patience to wait it out, got me here.

I have traveled a long, winding broken road to get to Batman. Not just in the past 6 months, but in the past 38 years. But it was the last 3 months, that have been the most significant. I had to find a way to free myself from the clutches of my past, physically, mentally and emotionally. I had to finally get free from The Forces of Evil. I had to find the patience to do this calmly and rationally when what I was fighting was anything but calm and rational. I had to find the logic and the calm when all I wanted to do was rage and storm. I had to be the adult, when I wanted to sit and throw temper tantrums.

I also had to learn patience. If Batman and I were to find our way back to each other it was going to be on the Universe's time table, not on mine. I had to wait for things to fall into place. I had to learn to be patient, to not push. I learned I have faith, and I learned all about trust. Trusting him, trusting the Universe, and trusting myself.

It's been a long winding and broken road, full of pot holes and road blocks, but I'm here. I know there are more lessons to be learned, more pot holes, stumbling blocks, and road blocks in the way. Just because we stand side by side, together again, does not mean the path before us will be easy, but we will walk it together now. The Universe has brought us back together, like I always believed it would. The Broken road led me straight to him.

I think about the years I spent, just passing through
I’d like to have the time I lost, and give it back to you
But you just smile, and take my hand
You’ve been there you understand
It’s all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Other’s who broke my heart, they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way, into your loving arms
This much I know is true
God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.

~Rascal Flatts


Celebrate Woo-Woo said...

So glad you posted this today. I need the encouragement not to push an issue I have been really tempted to push.

Dixie said...

That song. I love that song! It reminds me of me and my husband!

Great post!